Firstly, let me define "Universal Basic Income" as getting a living wage, no matter what, job or no job. You have the ability to have rent, food, and health care, no matter what. A negative tax.
Sure, the poor should support a guaranteed living wage, because that makes sense for them.
But what about corporations and the rich? Intuitively it may seem like of course they should not support it, but there's a giant glaring problem which is not being taken into account: automation. Within the next 20 years, about 40% of all jobs will be made obsolete by better, cheaper, faster technology. And that figure will only continue to rise. Truly no job is safe. No matter how creative or artistic what you do is, no matter how necessary you think you are to your job, the reality is, you probably aren't. This means that a LOT of people will be without a job in the very near future, yet the world will still expect them to be able to pay their bills.
That fills the powder keg for a very large revolution. The decreasing middle class, and the increasing gap between the rich and poor, combined with the world view that the poor should still pay for themselves even when there are truly no jobs available, means that unrest will turn into revolution, and the entire current system will simply collapse. Which of course it must, because it simply can't sustain itself.
Unless of course the wealthy and the corporations realize that it CAN sustain itself if the poor have enough to get by and thus are too complacent to revolt. It's in their long term best interest to pay the taxes to pay the poor so that the poor can live comfortably enough to not be starving and thus revolt and destroy the system.
That being said, I don't think it will happen. Individual immediate self-interest will override and the Nash equilibrium will be that the system falls apart, and a revolution of sweeping reform and Constitutional amendments will happen-- and that's the best case scenario.
I currently view myself as an "voluntaryist" -- a sort of pseudo anarcho-capitalist, and I would be ok with the current corporatocracy and even a large chunk of the government itself falling apart so much that we had to rebuild from scratch. But I feel compelled to point out that corporations and governments should actually campaign for basic income. They might not realize it, but it is in their best interest.
If they want to maintain the status quo, they need to make it *possible* to maintain the status quo. And having half the population revolt because they're starving because you expect them to have money when there aren't any jobs left -- that's a sure-fire way to ensure the status quo gets left behind. (Which of course it should...)
Basic income isn't a political view within the current system. It's the only possible way to keep the current system from collapsing.
But then again, many of us, myself included, would be happy to see the old world systems die the fiery death they should... Whatever happens, it'll certainly be interesting to see how it all plays out!
Monday, September 1, 2014
Tuesday, August 20, 2013
Life is OK
The past few years have been a little difficult, but just free-form writing things down seems like a good therapeutic way to get things out, so I figured what better way to update my blog! I also just finished writing my reasons why the whole NSA spying scandal is such a big deal, so that should be the other post listed here on blogspot. I might also post that to facebook.
Anyway, the poker team broke apart in late-mid 2012, which really sucked. There was also a handful of shitty things that happened, which involve other people so I'm not really comfortable talking about, which happened about the same time. I had a mini mental breakdown and also got really depressed for a while, but for at the minimum the past few months, I've definitely been over that and reasonably happy just trucking along. I certainly feel mentally "hardened" which is neat and useful but also a bit scary and depressing. It's good feeling like you can get through tough times, but it's a bit darker of a world to live in knowing such tough times are possible. Oh well-- like I said, I'm on the other side of all of it and feeling pretty happy on a day to day basis.
When team broke apart, my playing bankroll instantly got cut down to 1/4 of what it was previously, but I dumped a fair bit into bitcoins, which even though they've been volatile, have definitely gone up since I bought them, and I've also been playing a lot. I signed up to deal at the World Series, but the pay was so bad, the other dealers so annoying, that I quit after a few weeks. Before the Series, I had about $30K actual cash on hand (that figure is including bitcoin value) from saving up over the years in addition to paying my bills, but bitcoin prices have dropped a bit since then and my 5-10 and few buyins worth of 10-20 shots all went terribly, so with all that combined, I'm back down to just below $20K. That's certainly good enough for 2-5 live and 1-2 or even 2-4 online, but now that I'm on my own again and going bust is an end-of-the world disaster, my bankroll-nit ways are creeping back up again, so I've mostly been playing 1-2 live and microstakes for bitcoins on Seals, since my VPN Stars setup was just such a giant pain. I've also been tilting almost every session lately, which makes it so I really just can't play. While I've had tilt issues in the past, I've never had them this bad and they've never been this hard to get rid of. Before, I used to feel it creeping up on me and recognize the itch to start making bad calls and reckless plays, and I could outright push it away or at least recognize it and walk away. Now, it's more akin to an alien hand syndrome where I am simply overcome and make atrocious plays and can't stop myself. I've always prided myself on sort of being a consummate professional, and this is just outright embarrassing. It also puts me out of work. Which is really really bad.
With that, and having much less money that I thought I would at this point in time, I'm really feeling frustrated and antsy. I see so many people I know with families and nice homes and doing well. I see poker friends with less money taking shots and doing well at higher stakes. I am happy for them, but I also feel-- not jealous of what they have, but sort of ashamed that I've lost the courage to take the shots and risks necessary to get there myself. I also feel like I'm not where I should be at this point in my life. And it's weird because I'm completely comfortable and happy where I am, but I feel a lot of pressure from family and society that I should be doing more and doing different things. So I feel kind of lost and not sure what to do and not sure what to feel, and I feel bad that I don't know how I "should" feel. (And then of course I have an itch that I should be doing something more beneficial to the world than playing a fucking card game.) So lately I've been feeling very directionless.
I've also been spending more time trying to learn to program in Java, specifically for Android apps, because I think that's the most useful, and it'll teach me Java anyways, which is transferable. I have an idea for a relatively simple app, but even getting started on it is just taking forEVER. I knew I'd get stuck at the first step and it'd be a much longer road than I'd anticipated, but I'm stuck before I've even taken the first step. It's insanely frustrating to get in a jam so early, and a BIG jam too. And I don't even know enough to fix it yet, so diagnosing and fixing it is ENORMOUSLY more complicated for me than it would be for anybody else. Such is life. This is the best way to learn.
Anyway, as depressing as all this may be, it is all background noise to my day to day life, which on the whole has been fairly pleasant. I may not have accomplished much in the past few weeks, but I had a nice break-- took a hiking trip to Zion in Utah, I've caught up on some reading, learned more about Android and Java, and made a video for facebook friends about how to protect their e-mails in the wake of all the NSA. I also, at the recommendation of a friend, started a few episodes of House of Cards on Netflix. It's an excellent show but the idea that things work that way -- not even that they necessarily do, but the very idea that it's perfectly possible and plausible-- is disturbing and bothersome beyond measure. And it would make complete sense that it works that way too. So while I enjoy the show, it still really bothers me. I just don't "get" politics-- in any form. I speak plainly; I say what I mean and mean what I say; I give the whole truth. If I defend an idea or person or thing I need, I explain the situation fully and expect the logic behind my reasoning and humanity of the other person to prevail. I view my interactions as economic win-wins, and I don't try to benefit by concealing things. I simply view it both as unethical and also unnecessary and more trouble than it's worth. So interacting with people who DO conceal things and play politics-- be it business/governmental politics or the more common social maneuvering -- that kind of thing is entirely foreign to me, and I just don't interact with people who act that way with me. Poker, for all its frustrations and downfalls, allows me to not rely financially on others for getting by in life, which means I have no incentive to deceive them (not that I would anyway). So all of the people in my life know that I am just straightforward with them. And I expect the same of them. If you don't value me enough to be honest and straight with me, then our relationship really can't be that close or valuable can it? Anyway, ya, fuck Congress if it operates like House of Cards. Jesus.
So I guess I don't have much going on in the way of actual news. And I'm not really sad or anything on a day to day basis. (I was going to say I'm not depressed on a day to day basis, but I think I might actually be!...) I'm just trucking along, for the most part pretty happy, but frustrated with my place in life but still not sure what I even really WANT in life. But I'll be OK. I'll figure it out-- I always do.
Anyway, the poker team broke apart in late-mid 2012, which really sucked. There was also a handful of shitty things that happened, which involve other people so I'm not really comfortable talking about, which happened about the same time. I had a mini mental breakdown and also got really depressed for a while, but for at the minimum the past few months, I've definitely been over that and reasonably happy just trucking along. I certainly feel mentally "hardened" which is neat and useful but also a bit scary and depressing. It's good feeling like you can get through tough times, but it's a bit darker of a world to live in knowing such tough times are possible. Oh well-- like I said, I'm on the other side of all of it and feeling pretty happy on a day to day basis.
When team broke apart, my playing bankroll instantly got cut down to 1/4 of what it was previously, but I dumped a fair bit into bitcoins, which even though they've been volatile, have definitely gone up since I bought them, and I've also been playing a lot. I signed up to deal at the World Series, but the pay was so bad, the other dealers so annoying, that I quit after a few weeks. Before the Series, I had about $30K actual cash on hand (that figure is including bitcoin value) from saving up over the years in addition to paying my bills, but bitcoin prices have dropped a bit since then and my 5-10 and few buyins worth of 10-20 shots all went terribly, so with all that combined, I'm back down to just below $20K. That's certainly good enough for 2-5 live and 1-2 or even 2-4 online, but now that I'm on my own again and going bust is an end-of-the world disaster, my bankroll-nit ways are creeping back up again, so I've mostly been playing 1-2 live and microstakes for bitcoins on Seals, since my VPN Stars setup was just such a giant pain. I've also been tilting almost every session lately, which makes it so I really just can't play. While I've had tilt issues in the past, I've never had them this bad and they've never been this hard to get rid of. Before, I used to feel it creeping up on me and recognize the itch to start making bad calls and reckless plays, and I could outright push it away or at least recognize it and walk away. Now, it's more akin to an alien hand syndrome where I am simply overcome and make atrocious plays and can't stop myself. I've always prided myself on sort of being a consummate professional, and this is just outright embarrassing. It also puts me out of work. Which is really really bad.
With that, and having much less money that I thought I would at this point in time, I'm really feeling frustrated and antsy. I see so many people I know with families and nice homes and doing well. I see poker friends with less money taking shots and doing well at higher stakes. I am happy for them, but I also feel-- not jealous of what they have, but sort of ashamed that I've lost the courage to take the shots and risks necessary to get there myself. I also feel like I'm not where I should be at this point in my life. And it's weird because I'm completely comfortable and happy where I am, but I feel a lot of pressure from family and society that I should be doing more and doing different things. So I feel kind of lost and not sure what to do and not sure what to feel, and I feel bad that I don't know how I "should" feel. (And then of course I have an itch that I should be doing something more beneficial to the world than playing a fucking card game.) So lately I've been feeling very directionless.
I've also been spending more time trying to learn to program in Java, specifically for Android apps, because I think that's the most useful, and it'll teach me Java anyways, which is transferable. I have an idea for a relatively simple app, but even getting started on it is just taking forEVER. I knew I'd get stuck at the first step and it'd be a much longer road than I'd anticipated, but I'm stuck before I've even taken the first step. It's insanely frustrating to get in a jam so early, and a BIG jam too. And I don't even know enough to fix it yet, so diagnosing and fixing it is ENORMOUSLY more complicated for me than it would be for anybody else. Such is life. This is the best way to learn.
Anyway, as depressing as all this may be, it is all background noise to my day to day life, which on the whole has been fairly pleasant. I may not have accomplished much in the past few weeks, but I had a nice break-- took a hiking trip to Zion in Utah, I've caught up on some reading, learned more about Android and Java, and made a video for facebook friends about how to protect their e-mails in the wake of all the NSA. I also, at the recommendation of a friend, started a few episodes of House of Cards on Netflix. It's an excellent show but the idea that things work that way -- not even that they necessarily do, but the very idea that it's perfectly possible and plausible-- is disturbing and bothersome beyond measure. And it would make complete sense that it works that way too. So while I enjoy the show, it still really bothers me. I just don't "get" politics-- in any form. I speak plainly; I say what I mean and mean what I say; I give the whole truth. If I defend an idea or person or thing I need, I explain the situation fully and expect the logic behind my reasoning and humanity of the other person to prevail. I view my interactions as economic win-wins, and I don't try to benefit by concealing things. I simply view it both as unethical and also unnecessary and more trouble than it's worth. So interacting with people who DO conceal things and play politics-- be it business/governmental politics or the more common social maneuvering -- that kind of thing is entirely foreign to me, and I just don't interact with people who act that way with me. Poker, for all its frustrations and downfalls, allows me to not rely financially on others for getting by in life, which means I have no incentive to deceive them (not that I would anyway). So all of the people in my life know that I am just straightforward with them. And I expect the same of them. If you don't value me enough to be honest and straight with me, then our relationship really can't be that close or valuable can it? Anyway, ya, fuck Congress if it operates like House of Cards. Jesus.
So I guess I don't have much going on in the way of actual news. And I'm not really sad or anything on a day to day basis. (I was going to say I'm not depressed on a day to day basis, but I think I might actually be!...) I'm just trucking along, for the most part pretty happy, but frustrated with my place in life but still not sure what I even really WANT in life. But I'll be OK. I'll figure it out-- I always do.
NSA Flagged Word List for e-mails, texts, other communications
This is compiled from multiple sources and may contain duplicates...
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Why Privacy Matters
The NSA spying ordeal, UK destroying the Guardian's disk drives (useless as that was), and in general the US's and all the other Five Eyes nations' responses to the Snowden leaks is not merely "bad" -- it is outright evil.
Even if you don't mind nor care about the spying, or are bothered but not enough to do anything, I want to explain why it's such deep concern to me. I recognize that I live in one of the safest places on the planet, am better off than the vast majority of the world, during the most prosperous and safest times in the whole of human history, and that there are hundreds of people in the world dying every day simply because they don't have clean drinking water. This spying thing isn't the most pressing concern for most people. I get that. But for the "civilized" world, and those who aren't focused on more pressing concerns, this spying and the reaction of governments to it should be considered an egregious violation. It is evil. I have a big problem with it and you should too.
First, and least important, there's its (lack of) usefulness. There's evidence showing that it's mostly useless, which is good because if it was REALLY effective, there might actually be merrit to saying we should just let it happen. But that's not the case, and I point out the problems with that in another facebook post where I talk about the actual real world effectiveness of a 99% effective terrorist-finding algorithm... In short, terrorism is such a small problem that inconveniencing or harming people over finding and thwarting it does *significantly* more damage to innocent people than *actual terrorism*.
But let's forget about the uselessness and even the possibility that the spying and other anti-terrorism efforts do more harm than good. Let's, for the moment, assume they do a little bit of net positive. Now we can get closer to the heart of the issue, because the problem with all the spying is NOT its (lack of) effectiveness...
Maybe you are gay in Russia or large parts of Africa and the Middle East, and being found out means fines, imprisonment, or worse. Maybe you are a political dissident, not even necessarily planning revolution or violence-- just trying to have an intelligent discussion about cause and effect and social policy and the possible merits of aspects of Communism in the USA in the 50's.
These are the main examples people give when defending privacy-- that the laws and morals of a place may not be ethical and that privacy is necessary because it protects people from injustice in unjust places. This may be political climate, corruption of local powers (police, businesses, whatever), or it may simply be an individual who doesn't wish for his medical history or religious or political views to be known by the world, even if he's got nothing to hide from the powers that be.
But it goes a bit further. You might not be a dissident or have anything to hide-- but the problem is that may not be true *in the future*. Back to my 50s USA Communist example-- lets say you were advocating Communism in the 30s and that was all well and good, and heck in the wake of the Depression, many might have agreed with you. Suddenly 20 years later you are before a judge as a possible threat to national security for something that you were never trying to hide.
But none of this is the real problem.
You read that right, none of that is the problem, not by a long shot.
The problem with the NSA scandal and the way it has been handled lies at the core of why privacy for individuals is so important: being spied upon fundamentally alters the way you think. You begin to censor yourself without any coercion besides knowing that you are being watched. The very thoughts you have and your reactions to them change. The owner of Groklaw.net, who is shutting the site down, analogized it to having your home being broken into even if nothing was stolen. Knowing a stranger had seen your family photos, riffled through your things, had been in your home-- had penetrated the very area that you go to in order to be safe... suddenly the world seems a lot scarier.
The same goes for your phone, e-mails, internet activity, et cetera.
You may not be planning a terrorist attack, but are still curious about how nuclear bombs work, because heck, it's kind of fascinating to think about a chain reaction of one molecule bombarding others and releasing energy and particles that continue bombarding and so forth. Or you may want to write a story that involves a bomb and you want to get the details right.
Then you remember. They are watching. Merely typing in Google what you are about to type will almost certainly flag you somewhere. You aren't doing anything wrong, but *They* don't know that. Is it really worth getting on a database somewhere, potentially putting your family through an annoying situation? Maybe bombs *aren't* that interesting. Maybe your story *shouldn't* have that it in.
Suddenly, instead of being safe in your own person and in your own *MIND*, you have become a prisoner. It's not overt. You aren't getting rounded up. Heck, YOU aren't even doing anything wrong, or at least not something that the government in your physical location *thinks* is wrong. But still, that nagging feeling. That little bit of anxiousness.
And that's just for people in FREE countries who are under the least authoritarian regimes in all of history.
This is why privacy for individuals is so so very important and worth protecting at heavy cost, and why transparency in institutions like businesses and governments is so so important and worth demanding and fighting for at even heavy cost. Accountability and transparency so the individual knows what is going on and what to expect and that violations of laws and trust are rightly punishment-- those things are what allows the individual to be free. Privacy for the individual and transparency of institutions are ends in themselves certainly-- they protect us in a *provable* and *verifiable* way that, but additionally, they are ends to even more important means-- they actually enable true and genuine freedom, both in terms of physical safety as well as psychological well being.
So what does it do to a citizen of the USA or the UK when the President goes on Leno and says no spying is occurring when we have hard data that says it is? What does it make us think and feel when James Clapper and others outright lie to Congress and are not punished? What does it do to us when the UK destroys the hard drives at the Guardian? When Manning and Snowden and Assange are on trial or hunted? When the Manning prosecutor is pushing for the death penalty for aiding the enemy?
This is why I am such a staunch advocate of utilizing encryption and other privacy tools. It's not so much about "fuck the Man" (although, FUCK the Man!) as it is about trying to preserve freedom and safety, of my person and my mind, and also showing others how to preserve THEIR safety and peace of mind. Privacy for the individual and transparency of institutions are not merely ends of themselves, they matter because actually being free is only possible with them. And I'm grateful for people like Glenn Greenwald, who committed the egregious crime of domestic journalism.
Even if you don't mind nor care about the spying, or are bothered but not enough to do anything, I want to explain why it's such deep concern to me. I recognize that I live in one of the safest places on the planet, am better off than the vast majority of the world, during the most prosperous and safest times in the whole of human history, and that there are hundreds of people in the world dying every day simply because they don't have clean drinking water. This spying thing isn't the most pressing concern for most people. I get that. But for the "civilized" world, and those who aren't focused on more pressing concerns, this spying and the reaction of governments to it should be considered an egregious violation. It is evil. I have a big problem with it and you should too.
First, and least important, there's its (lack of) usefulness. There's evidence showing that it's mostly useless, which is good because if it was REALLY effective, there might actually be merrit to saying we should just let it happen. But that's not the case, and I point out the problems with that in another facebook post where I talk about the actual real world effectiveness of a 99% effective terrorist-finding algorithm... In short, terrorism is such a small problem that inconveniencing or harming people over finding and thwarting it does *significantly* more damage to innocent people than *actual terrorism*.
But let's forget about the uselessness and even the possibility that the spying and other anti-terrorism efforts do more harm than good. Let's, for the moment, assume they do a little bit of net positive. Now we can get closer to the heart of the issue, because the problem with all the spying is NOT its (lack of) effectiveness...
Maybe you are gay in Russia or large parts of Africa and the Middle East, and being found out means fines, imprisonment, or worse. Maybe you are a political dissident, not even necessarily planning revolution or violence-- just trying to have an intelligent discussion about cause and effect and social policy and the possible merits of aspects of Communism in the USA in the 50's.
These are the main examples people give when defending privacy-- that the laws and morals of a place may not be ethical and that privacy is necessary because it protects people from injustice in unjust places. This may be political climate, corruption of local powers (police, businesses, whatever), or it may simply be an individual who doesn't wish for his medical history or religious or political views to be known by the world, even if he's got nothing to hide from the powers that be.
But it goes a bit further. You might not be a dissident or have anything to hide-- but the problem is that may not be true *in the future*. Back to my 50s USA Communist example-- lets say you were advocating Communism in the 30s and that was all well and good, and heck in the wake of the Depression, many might have agreed with you. Suddenly 20 years later you are before a judge as a possible threat to national security for something that you were never trying to hide.
But none of this is the real problem.
You read that right, none of that is the problem, not by a long shot.
The problem with the NSA scandal and the way it has been handled lies at the core of why privacy for individuals is so important: being spied upon fundamentally alters the way you think. You begin to censor yourself without any coercion besides knowing that you are being watched. The very thoughts you have and your reactions to them change. The owner of Groklaw.net, who is shutting the site down, analogized it to having your home being broken into even if nothing was stolen. Knowing a stranger had seen your family photos, riffled through your things, had been in your home-- had penetrated the very area that you go to in order to be safe... suddenly the world seems a lot scarier.
The same goes for your phone, e-mails, internet activity, et cetera.
You may not be planning a terrorist attack, but are still curious about how nuclear bombs work, because heck, it's kind of fascinating to think about a chain reaction of one molecule bombarding others and releasing energy and particles that continue bombarding and so forth. Or you may want to write a story that involves a bomb and you want to get the details right.
Then you remember. They are watching. Merely typing in Google what you are about to type will almost certainly flag you somewhere. You aren't doing anything wrong, but *They* don't know that. Is it really worth getting on a database somewhere, potentially putting your family through an annoying situation? Maybe bombs *aren't* that interesting. Maybe your story *shouldn't* have that it in.
Suddenly, instead of being safe in your own person and in your own *MIND*, you have become a prisoner. It's not overt. You aren't getting rounded up. Heck, YOU aren't even doing anything wrong, or at least not something that the government in your physical location *thinks* is wrong. But still, that nagging feeling. That little bit of anxiousness.
And that's just for people in FREE countries who are under the least authoritarian regimes in all of history.
This is why privacy for individuals is so so very important and worth protecting at heavy cost, and why transparency in institutions like businesses and governments is so so important and worth demanding and fighting for at even heavy cost. Accountability and transparency so the individual knows what is going on and what to expect and that violations of laws and trust are rightly punishment-- those things are what allows the individual to be free. Privacy for the individual and transparency of institutions are ends in themselves certainly-- they protect us in a *provable* and *verifiable* way that, but additionally, they are ends to even more important means-- they actually enable true and genuine freedom, both in terms of physical safety as well as psychological well being.
So what does it do to a citizen of the USA or the UK when the President goes on Leno and says no spying is occurring when we have hard data that says it is? What does it make us think and feel when James Clapper and others outright lie to Congress and are not punished? What does it do to us when the UK destroys the hard drives at the Guardian? When Manning and Snowden and Assange are on trial or hunted? When the Manning prosecutor is pushing for the death penalty for aiding the enemy?
This is why I am such a staunch advocate of utilizing encryption and other privacy tools. It's not so much about "fuck the Man" (although, FUCK the Man!) as it is about trying to preserve freedom and safety, of my person and my mind, and also showing others how to preserve THEIR safety and peace of mind. Privacy for the individual and transparency of institutions are not merely ends of themselves, they matter because actually being free is only possible with them. And I'm grateful for people like Glenn Greenwald, who committed the egregious crime of domestic journalism.
Tuesday, March 20, 2012
Life is good!
Well it's been an interesting past nine months or so. It's a bit sadder viewing the world in a slightly darker light, but I'm trying to be a bit more upbeat and less emo than my last post here made me seem! Some relationships have fizzled or been cut, but the ones I still have I think are better and stronger because they are based on mutual appreciation and both sides know the other will speak up when they want something.
I'm online, and have been trying to hone my PLO skills playing low stakes omaha, and Stars just introduced their version of Rush poker, “Zoom,” which works very well. As my former coach described it “it's brilliant; it allows one-tabling fish to multitable!” I also like it because it allows you to re-use the same old postflop moves over and over without people catching on, and you can also manipulate your stats without people looking. (Now I can ship the turn or the river light EVERY TIME completely unbalanced, and very few people will notice. I can also min 3-bet all my playable hands against middle and late openers, and then get paid huge when I re-pop aces full pot from regs who I know have their HUD running.)
And without the weight of obligations that I previously had, I have been able to steadily make my own life situation much more tolerable, and even good! I've made many new friends and poker connections, I've moved up a few levels in stakes, I have some staking offers and people who would eagerly be students, I've played in ungodly high stakes private home games... just lots of craziness, but good craziness, happening poker-wise.
I also went back to New Zealand to visit my dad, and once again, had enormous trouble with my step-mom. I thought that since I paid for the trip she would be better, seeing me able to support myself better, but that was not the case. She apparently just does not approve of anything about me or who I am as a person, and I've decided that she's just not a person I care about or want in my life. I love my dad and he deserves to be happy, and she makes him happy (apparently, some how!), so I'm grateful to her for that, but I'm done with my efforts to include her in any way, shape or form in my life. Too bad. Other than her, New Zealand was fantastic and I once again had a fantastic time.
I'm also moving to the LA area which will be good for poker and for life. There's just not much to do in Vegas, and the culture and general attitude of the people is much less appealing than the LA culture/attitude, so I'm very excited. (And LA, in turn, has worse culture and attitude than New Zealand, where being laid back all the time, not wearing any shoes, and just generally relaxing and hanging out with people constitutes a full days work. Paradise!)
So, life is generally good. Keepin' on turckin'. I'm still playing a lot of poker, but I'm at a point where I feel like I'm starting to be able to work towards a good steady life, without much stress, not having to grind on my computer 10 hours a day 6 days a week making less than minimum wage just to barely pay my expenses each month. And I really enjoy the people I've been meeting. The new poker friends I've met are really good and decent people, and networked in the poker and entertainment world like crazy, and the people outside of poker are just generally good people whom I respect and enjoy. Life is good, and looking very much like it will get even better.
I probably still won't update this blog much. I got my twitter hooked up so I can send tweets via text message, and my facebook hooked up to automagically post my tweets on my fb wall, so now that I can just post things everywhere with a single text message, I will probably update those more often (and still not post anything on here more than once or twice a year!).
So yeah, life is good!
I'm online, and have been trying to hone my PLO skills playing low stakes omaha, and Stars just introduced their version of Rush poker, “Zoom,” which works very well. As my former coach described it “it's brilliant; it allows one-tabling fish to multitable!” I also like it because it allows you to re-use the same old postflop moves over and over without people catching on, and you can also manipulate your stats without people looking. (Now I can ship the turn or the river light EVERY TIME completely unbalanced, and very few people will notice. I can also min 3-bet all my playable hands against middle and late openers, and then get paid huge when I re-pop aces full pot from regs who I know have their HUD running.)
And without the weight of obligations that I previously had, I have been able to steadily make my own life situation much more tolerable, and even good! I've made many new friends and poker connections, I've moved up a few levels in stakes, I have some staking offers and people who would eagerly be students, I've played in ungodly high stakes private home games... just lots of craziness, but good craziness, happening poker-wise.
I also went back to New Zealand to visit my dad, and once again, had enormous trouble with my step-mom. I thought that since I paid for the trip she would be better, seeing me able to support myself better, but that was not the case. She apparently just does not approve of anything about me or who I am as a person, and I've decided that she's just not a person I care about or want in my life. I love my dad and he deserves to be happy, and she makes him happy (apparently, some how!), so I'm grateful to her for that, but I'm done with my efforts to include her in any way, shape or form in my life. Too bad. Other than her, New Zealand was fantastic and I once again had a fantastic time.
I'm also moving to the LA area which will be good for poker and for life. There's just not much to do in Vegas, and the culture and general attitude of the people is much less appealing than the LA culture/attitude, so I'm very excited. (And LA, in turn, has worse culture and attitude than New Zealand, where being laid back all the time, not wearing any shoes, and just generally relaxing and hanging out with people constitutes a full days work. Paradise!)
So, life is generally good. Keepin' on turckin'. I'm still playing a lot of poker, but I'm at a point where I feel like I'm starting to be able to work towards a good steady life, without much stress, not having to grind on my computer 10 hours a day 6 days a week making less than minimum wage just to barely pay my expenses each month. And I really enjoy the people I've been meeting. The new poker friends I've met are really good and decent people, and networked in the poker and entertainment world like crazy, and the people outside of poker are just generally good people whom I respect and enjoy. Life is good, and looking very much like it will get even better.
I probably still won't update this blog much. I got my twitter hooked up so I can send tweets via text message, and my facebook hooked up to automagically post my tweets on my fb wall, so now that I can just post things everywhere with a single text message, I will probably update those more often (and still not post anything on here more than once or twice a year!).
So yeah, life is good!
Sunday, July 31, 2011
On the Resonsibility of Freedom
A lot has happened to me over the last couple of years. Although I moved back to Las Vegas in an attempt to stand on my own two feet and grow up and become free, earning my own freedom, I had only partially succeeded. And each year since I moved here, I felt like I was on pace to become fully independent and free to act and do as I saw fit, but each year, I had failed and fallen back down to approximately where I was when I got here.
My mom was paying for my health insurance, and my dad paid to have me fly to visit him and my step mom. I was still living by the grace of others, and as unacceptable as I found that state, I always felt like at the very least I was working towards breaking away from that and being able to be financially independent. In fact, in the fall of last year, I was doing so well financially that I invited an old friend of mine who wasn't doing so well to come live with me. He was making his own way, but precariously, and his options were running out where he was, so we both thought that Las Vegas would be a great place to be—he, like myself, is a poker player, and having the casinos right here, as well as a bevy of potential students from the weekly discussions groups, and cheaper rent and shared utilities— this all was a much better setup for him. And I had a new comrade-in-arms to hit the poker tables with.
However, the weeks and months went by, and he did not attempt to utilize the new options available to him, and the money ran thinner and thinner, and eventually I was covering much of his cost of living. And this was at a point when, as I said, I was still not fully covering MYSELF completely. I was frustrated with his lack of effort, but at the same time, I tried not to interfere with his life and give him leeway. After all, I remember when I was up in Seattle looking for work, and I couldn't find any, and I felt completely helpless. I didn't know what I should be doing and why what I was doing wasn't working. I felt worthless and helpless and I had no idea how to change that.
Then came April 15th.
Suddenly everything was clear.
On April 15th, 2011 the United States Department of Justice seized the internet domain names of the three largest online poker sites in the world, and froze the bank accounts of their payment processors, all at once. One of my major life-lines had been completely severed. Author and poker professional Matt Matros summed it up decently: “It almost feels as if I’ve been stripped of one of my college degrees — as if a career skill I’ve been honing for all of my adult life is suddenly useless.”
I knew why they had been shut down—most people think it was some moral/political maneuver, but that's not the case. The Southern New York DOJ is famous for its relentless pursuit of money launderers, and there's really no easier method of transferring 5 or 6 figures anonymously than losing it at a game of poker. When it comes out of the account of the “winner” it is legitimate gambling winnings that can be spent freely without needing to be further laundered. For a $20 Western Union fee going in, $3 per hand rake, and $20 more in wire transfer fees going out, I can ship you a few hundred thousand dollars, and nobody can connect us together.
Regardless of the reasons, something in my brain clicked that day. This was unacceptable. My LIFE was unacceptable. As much as poker may be a conduit for money laundering, so is cash. So is the entire city of Las Vegas. And freedom of action, civil rights, must always take precedence over all other concerns when the rights of others are not infringed upon. This is when I realized WHY I was always agitated and WHY I always felt like I was struggling and WHY I found it so difficult to move ahead in life. I allowed the immoral to supersede my own judgment. But no more.
By April 17th, I had concocted a plan to get back online. I won't go into the details, but I will soon be playing poker online again. There will be no trace of it, or connection to me, other than this blog post. I will accurately report my taxes. I will not act immorally or harm others. I will simply do that which is accepted in nearly every other country in the world. I understand the risks of this endeavor and accept the consequences of my actions.
I had decided all of this within a few days of Black Friday, and I had also decided that I needed to cut off my “friend”. As bad as I felt for him, and as much as I know how helpless I felt, there were more factors that needed to be considered. Firstly, it was not only myself and my resources that I was expending. It got to the point where I was struggling enough that I felt like I needed to go begging at my mom's feet again. Now she has always supported me and come to not only accept but like the fact that I play poker, and she has been willing to support me financially when I needed it, and happily so, with the belief—the belief that I shared—that I would get on my feet soon enough. But when my choices were going to bleed over and start affecting her, that was unacceptable.
For the previous month or two, I had explained that my financial situation was getting dire, and I would barely make it until the World Series of Poker (which has been a nice annual boost, because I know I can deal there each year if I need the money), but still the effort was not increased. I had offered to teach him to deal in time for the WSOP, I had helped find him potential students, stakes him for games, but none of it was taken advantage of. Only I was taken advantage of. And THAT was unacceptable.
When I was in Seattle, feeling helpless, my mom was frustrated with me as well. She too felt like I should be making progress, and it got to the point where she said I had to do SOMETHING even if it was work at McDonald's, and that I couldn't live with her forever. That was the jolt I needed, and about a month later I had packed up and come back to Vegas and was going to try to make a go at poker.
I was very angry at her for that for a while, because I felt like I wasn't ready. But although, as I mentioned at the start of this post, I wasn't completely on my own two feet, I was at least partly there and making a darn good attempt. And I eventually was grateful to her for forcing me to “sink or swim” because I think I would have continued wading in the kiddie pool forever if she hadn't. I owe her a lot for that jolt into action.
With that in mind, and secure in the knowledge that my “friend” was not going to do any more than he had been doing, I informed him that I was cutting him off—I was moving out. I don't know what he's going to do, and I don't know if he knows either. All I know is that I can't afford the emotions or the finances he needs for support. He has drained me, and I let him do it.
My friend, do not try to find me or contact me; I will not be there. If you are to die in the street starving, I understand that is a possible outcome. If some day you understand why I feel not that I have abandoned YOU, but that YOU have abandoned ME, and if some day you understand why and how I can care about you while still being numb to what happens to you, and if some day you are standing yourself on your own two feet and wish to meet me on equal ground, and if some day you wish to share a friendship and knowledge that is of mutual benefit, then on that day I will want to be found by you and be your friend. I understand that that day may never come and that you may always be angry at me for what has happened, and blame everything but your own choices on how your life turns out. But I hope that is not the case.
I know I am not in the wrong. I have helped two other people prior to trying to help you. They both took advantage of the opportunity and got themselves back on their feet, and I am proud of what they've accomplished and who they are, and proud to be their friend. They did not view life as endless struggle, to be lived day by day with no forethought and with only the avoidance of today's pain in mind. They did not wait until the last minute to fix problems they knew about in advance and then claim to be so unlucky as to have the problem still exist after all this time. (And no, I will not remove or edit this post.)
ANYWAY....
So I had come up with a plan to get back online, and I had decided to move out—in short, I had realized that my own inability to stand fully on my own two feet was my acceptance of that state of being, and I had decided that was no longer acceptable.
Backtrack about a year and a half.
I went to New Zealand, on my dad's dime of course, to visit my dad and my step mom and see New Zealand for the first time. (South Island FTW!) I thoroughly enjoyed the trip but having then run me around all over to make sure I got to see all of it got tiring, and I requested a day or rest and hanging around home once or twice. Additionally, I didn't sleep well a few of the days, and was thus more concerned with when we were getting to the destination rather than the scenery.
Background info: My step mom has never liked me. She tolerated me because I was my father's son, and she loves my father. But she wholly disapproves of my view on life, my ethical standpoint, my lack of religion, my poker (gambling).... pretty much everything about me and who I am as a person. That's fine. She's allowed to think and go about life however she pleases. Although I disagree, I understand WHY she feels this way because I know what her world view is, and I can see why I appear to her the way I do. And besides, she makes my dad happy, and for that, I am eternally grateful. I have basically tried to just avoid communication with her because it seems that we end up in a disagreement every time we speak, so I feel that not talking was the cleanest way to handle things.
Now then, as I said, I was very much enjoying the New Zealand trip, but I was worn out for some of it, and I guess it showed. My step-mom wrote an exceedingly vile letter (because speaking out loud was too difficult) about how ungrateful I was, and basically how I was a little punk leaching off my dad and not properly appreciating the trip which he had paid for. The other main point of the letter was that I was a poor communicator and didn't attempt to engage her in conversation. As I said above, I thought not speaking was the best way to keep the peace, but apparently, she disagreed! (You can read it for yourself, Page 1 and Page 2.)
I have written a similarly vile letter. When I was in high school, I had a long distance relationship, which is certainly odd for being in high school, and my parents were concerned about it, and I wrote a long hate-filled diatribe about them, their separation, and who are they to judge me blah blah blah. I don't have a copy of it to link to, but I would happily show it if I had it, because I am rightly ashamed of it. I also don't expect my parents to forgive me for it. I love them, and I think they understand WHY I wrote it and how confused and angry I was when I wrote it, so although it was completely unacceptable and unforgivable, I know they at least know where it came from and that I have grown past such stupidity, and that I love them and appreciate them for who they are and all they have done for me.
Similarly, I understand why my step-mom felt the way she did, and the torment boiling inside of her that forced her to express such feelings. I do not forgive her for it, since she has never attempted to understand me and my life, and why I am proud of the person I am, while I have sought to understand her and her world view. But at the very least, I do understand why she feels the way she does, and I know that from that point of view, I am a gross outsider and a freak. An immoral and disrespectful person.
Normally, I show respect when I feel it is earned... and as I've said, I'm not the fondest of her and don't respect much of the way she approaches the world. But the thing is—she had a RIGHT to expect respect.
That's important, because it's the crux of my entire problem. I was relying on my dad and in part on her, not just financially, but in many respects. And because I was dependent on her, she felt she had a right to expect certain things from me. And you know what, she's right. When I was supporting my friend, I had a RIGHT to expect him to try and break free of my support. And if my step mom is in some way supporting me, she has a RIGHT to expect things of me.
Fast forward now to a few weeks ago. I was at a game night with some friends, and the wife of one of my poker buddies, in a completely off-hand comment mentioned that she thought I was a virgin. (My ego compels me to mention that I'm not, although seeing as how my mom is the most frequent reader of my blog, I'm not sure how grateful I am about my ego's desire to put that out there. Hooray for awkwardness!)
Anyhow, prideful as I am, I was a bit upset about this, but it only took a moment to realize that she ALSO had a right to this opinion. She's a smart lady, and I value her friendship and her opinions, and if she thought this of me, it was not a fault of hers, but of mine.
The image that I project to the world clearly is not the image I have of myself. And you know what? The image I have of myself just isn't accurate. My projection is my actions and my way of presenting myself, and those ARE who I am, so it is my own image of myself that needs adjusting. And who I really am is not who I want to be and who I thought I was. This women thinks I am a soft spoken computer geek virgin, and I think I am some kind of god. The problem is, she's closer to accurate than I am.
That is unacceptable.
Because she's RIGHT to think of me the way she does, and because my step mom was RIGHT to feel the way she did, and because I am RIGHT to leave my old friend in the dust, because of the moral code which makes these values real to me—my moral code—I needed to change who I was and how I approached my life. Being dependent on anybody else for my finances, for my happiness, for my well-being, for my LIFE, is unacceptable to me and will not stand any longer.
From this point forward, I will be responsible for my destiny. My life will be my own, completely and irreversibly. If that means when I go broke I work at McDonald's, then that's what it takes. I will at the very least still have my pride and my knowledge that I am doing what it takes to EARN my own way in this world, without relying on the charity of others. If I visit my dad in New Zealand this year, it will either be on my own dime, or with the understanding that he wishes to treat me to the trip as a gift, and that I am free to enjoy the gift as I see fit, and not in any manner that he expects of me. (To be fair and clear, he DOES already feel this way—it was only my step mom who didn't.)
In a similar vein, I have recently realized that I am no longer a liberal democrat. I am an anarchist. If I felt that government COULD work, I would still be a liberal. (The people who self-identify as the American Christian Conservative Right are the most evil and vile people whose way of existing actively harms the rest of humanity, and they should be fought fervently, whether you are for or against government.) But alas, I think the red-tape bureaucracy is too ineffectual to work, and acting in accordance with my morality of self-reliance, I have realized that I must live for myself, in every respect, including politically. (I am NOT an anarcho-capitalist... I have already outlined many of the problems with capitalism and shown more reasons why if government can work, more regulation is better.)
I will from this point forward respect myself. That means not just being financially independent and free in all other respects, but treating myself with the respect I deserve. This means getting my fat butt back in shape, speaking my mind more often and clearly, and projecting to the world the person I want to be and feel that I should be.
I am a good person, and I seek to leave the world and humanity at large better than I found it; therefore, any action I take to better myself and make myself happy and achieve what I want in life is a moral action.
I can now pay my own way and stand on my own two feet, and I will make sure that is always the case. My life is my own, wholly and without reservation.
I will live for myself. I will only help others if I can afford it and if the enjoyment I get from being able to help them and see them succeed is worth the price I am paying. I will treat others with the respect they deserve in my eyes, no more and no less. I will act according to my own morality at all times and in all things. I will treat myself, my body, and my mind with the respect they deserve. I will love others for who they are and what they bring to my life and to the world, in combination with the knowledge of their love for who I am and what I bring to their life and to the world. I will choose freedom over security; I will choose my life over others' beliefs that I owe them things I do not owe. I will be free. And I will earn my freedom.
Anything else is unacceptable.
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